Musings, Ramblings, and Philisophical Ponderings

random speech syntax

the meaning of the things i say
is not the same as i what i mean
for when i say the things i mean
i found i’ve said a thought i’ve thought
and not a thing i’ve said

but when the meaning realigns:
my words expressions phrases
shift change move twist alter bend
to from about for with between because
different complex new creative
arrangements meanings conveyances points

multiple thoughts and single words
i siphon out a train off a track
no track no track no track it rides
within a crack on the sidewalk
no steering no switches no changes
just a one directional movement

words shift to different arrangements
expressions change from complex meanings
phrases move about new conveyances
words twist for creative points
expressions alter with different arrangements
phrases bend between complex meanings

oh what a knot i’ve tied a knot
between a thot and another thot
its like the game where everyone
reaches through the middle and
grabs a hand then: unscramble
what will be the end result?
random will determine

speech is random as life is random
thought is random speech syntax
thought is motion of random life
speech motion thought train syntax
no track no track no track it rides
and soon there will be no crack

So, I think some of you have given up, but if any of you ever want to read it, and in case my copy saved on my hard drive gets deleted, here's the next segment of my novel.
Current Total Word Count: Approx. 11,000
Insanity Level: Rising
Note: This is the point where plot holes might develope. I am starting to have to refer back to stuff already written (like I would go back to change it?) and I'm now, even more than ever, foreshadowing towards the ending. Feel free to point out any inconsistencies, you mistake seekers with your magnifying glasses.

Thanks to a certain...person...for mentioning Brenda Spencer, about whom my characters shall have many offtopic disgustions.
And thanks to another...person...for mentioning relativism, which I really don't know enough about to use the way I do, oh well, what the hell!

Additionally, I don't mean to degrade you guys as people in the above notes.

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Some updates:
Tentative title is now: "Everything Works Out in the End".
Total Word Count is very near 8,100 words.
And I haven't gone insane yet.

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Continuing my previous post about my NaNoWriMo entry, here's about 3000 more words of it, most of which are from yesterday. I'm going to keep posting here, just because. So nyeh. Any violence and/or comparisons to Alice in Wonderland are coincidental and I am not disturbed.

I also can't be held responsible for grammar so nyeh.

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It's nanowrimo time of year again. And a certain someone reminded me to participate. Here's what I got in 15 minutes.


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Oh yeah. Philosophical ponderings. Hmmmm... Ho hum. Sounds like fun. If you think this me trying to assert intellectual superiority it might be. If you think the previous sentence was me trying to attain modesty by showing that I understood my vanity, then try to analyze this sentence. If you see any mistakes or arguable points in what I write below, argue with me 'til I cry. If you don't reply to this post, I'll cry also. That means the three of you, or four of you. You know who you are (you're probably the only ones reading this, and no, I'm not dead).

The question I've been pondering lately is ethics. That fundamentalist site I was looking through to thwart their logic said that without the Bible we cannot make meaning out of our lives. Without believing in God, we cannot determine what is wrong and what is right. Well, I think that's a load of asterisks, dollar signs, percent signs and at symbols (@*$%!!).

So let's start with something simple. Sorta. In math, some of the most frustrating proofs are the most obvious things. Why in the world do we need to prove that 1=1? Well, why in the world do I need to explain why I "hold these truths to be self-evident...life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness." Why? Because a nihilist would come up and say "Life? Nyeh." Or a fundamentalist would say "Life? Not if you don't accept Jesus." Or any other number of things. To the fundamentalist I would say "Who are you to judge in God's name" and be done with it. To the nihilist, however, it's not that simple.

Why are we entitled to life, first and foremost, above and above all (and how come if I believe this I still believe in capital punishment?)? Excluding the issue of capital punishment, the issue of life is a fairly simple one. To me at least.

Life is life. It's what allows us to have a perspective. To take life away from someone is to destroy. But if there is no truth, why does that matter? No truth? No truth? There is truth. Either there is a god or there isn't. Some of us claim to now for sure, and some of us admit we're guessing. Whatever there is, there is a truth. But if Nihilism is the truth, then it would be true that there is no truth. Nihilism cannot be true, cannot be correct, simply on the virtue that it says nothing is correct. So you say you're a nihilist, I say that no proof does not mean no truth. It means uncertainty.

So there may not be truth in the strictest definition of the word, but neither is there falsehood, the complete absence of truth. There is simply uncertainty as to the proper truth. How do we know that killing others is not correct, if we do not know what the truth is?

We don't. It cannot be proven. I do not believe it can be proven. However, go around telling people you believe you can kill them. Next thing you know, you're roasting on a barbecue. Respect for the life of human beings works because beyong it is true anarchy. Forget the laws, forget the government, as long as we believe our fellow man has the right to live, nothing is an issue any longer.

But it is still an issue. Wars continue. Men kill each other, believing with all their hearts that killing is the answer. If everyone accepted this one fact, we would have a utopia. Or would we?

Imagine a utopia based on this principle. No one kills anyone else. Everyone keeps to themselves. What does this mean? They don't stab each other, shoot each other strangle eachother, or is there more to it? Does not killing mean they would not steal another's only food. Does not killing mean they would give their food to eachother so that no one will starve of hunger? This is not the proper principle for a utopia.

Everyone would need to not only allow others to live by not killing them directly, they would also have to not kill them indirectly. No one would be able to infringe on anothers biological needs to survive. Food, water, sleep, clothes in extreme weather (and sex to reproduce if we're talking about the whole human race, which I'm not sure we are) and medicine in the modern age, but once again that's an entirely different issue. So we cannot hog all of the farmland. If our neighbor has no way to make money, no way to grow food, we give them land if we can.

So to conclude for the night. What have I said so far? Why I believe, and with pretty good reasons, that life is a liberty entitled to everyone and what that entails. I will continue this eventually. I think.

By the way, if there is any skill I do not have it is the ability to go back through something I've already written. What is above may be incoherent and nonsensical. I do think I meant what I said at the time however.

These are 32 reasons you are wrong from Scott Adams' book, The Joy of Work. With a little hardwork, we'll be able to find a fundementalist quote that fits each of them! But I need you guys' help,as it's actually pretty difficult...not because the fundamentalist logic isn't flawed, just because it doesn't fit these categories well. And a lot of it is based on the bible (which I have down as logical fallacy "Circular Reasoning". Anyway, the regular examples are Scott Adams and any filled in Fundamentalist ones I made up. So here we go:

For your convenience, I have written the brain malfunction(s) that
most closely resemble(s) the one(s) you recently made on the topic of homosexuality, evolution and Jesus as the source of salvation.

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Go to sleep
Rest my head
Give up the light
Of the day
And the night
For a moment of bliss.

Close my eyes
Dream sweet dreams
Knowing inside
That I'll open my eyes
And see morning sun beams.

When asleep
My mind can't think
Of all the reasons
I'm still awake
I don't care
What the future holds
While my eyes are closed.
While my eyes are closed.

Closed.

I see what I want to see
Around me there is light
I don't wonder who I am
There's no worries
While my eyes are closed:

I fly with silver wings
I run between the clouds and sing
That life is easy
Life's a blessing
Life is easy
While my eyes are closed:
I swim through ocean depths
No wetsuit and no scuba tanks
Cause Life is easy
Life's a blessing
Life is easy
While my eyes are closed:

(Music for a while)

Sometime life
Might be like hell
But if it ends
Then there's no dawn
Just ignore what the future holds
And close your eyes tonight
Close your eyes tonight

Today I saw
A woman cry
Sitting alone
On a picnic bench
She won't care
That she's still alone
If her eyes are closed.
If her eyes are closed.

Closed.

I see what I want to see
I see a perfect world
I don't wonder how I'll live
There's no worries
While my eyes are closed:

I fly with silver wings
I run between the clouds and sing
That life is easy
Life's a blessing
Life is easy
While your eyes are closed:
I swim through ocean depths
No wetsuits and so scuba tanks
Cause life is easy
Life's a blessing
Life is easy
While your eyes are closed:

(Musical Interlude)

But now while I'm still awake
I pray that sleep will come and make
My life real easy
Life a blessing
Life is easy
While my eyes are closed:
I don't see the outside world
No starving children and dead soldiers
And life is easy
Life's a blessing
Life is easy
While my eyes are closed:

I see what I want to see
No worries and no frights
I don't wonder when I'll die
There's no worries
While my eyes are closed:

I fly with silver wings
I run between the clouds and sing
That life is easy
Life's a blessing
Life is easy
While my eyes are closed:
I swim through ocean depths
No wetsuit and no scuba tanks
Cause life is easy
Life's a blessing
Life is easy
While my eyes are closed:
I fly with silver wings
I run between the clouds and sing
That life is easy
Life's a blessing
Life is easy
While my eyes are closed.
While my eyes are closed.
While my eyes are closed.

The words in this sentence describe me.